That Sort of Midnight Ceiling Feeling

It's hard to admit

But I've been thinking about you again

The time we haven't spent

And these dreams that never left

I chased and chased and chased

Something so much more than this

Now hoping some underlying truth would come in my absence

I’m not sure that either of us have been the same since

A painful memory is not how I want you to remember me

But I can't go on pretending I'm somewhere I want to be

Running out of distractions

I’ve associated everything with you, everything

The context of breathless expressions

You've got me believing our time to you wasn’t precious

Impatiently waited for some kind of answer

You thought of yourself a mess but I was still obsessed

Even now you find me instead of him

It's not my business but I’d say that's a sign

I'd tell you but I know it's not changing your mind

We could have been the greatest

There was a sure life in your short lived warm embraces

If we had the chance to start over I’d take it

As it stands, I might say different

To step inside your mind even for just awhile

Gave me such a feeling unlike countless others

What could be said, what was it we said?

All these sceneries watched silently

Replayed moments always get to me

And when anyone sees through

They might ask and I won't admit

It's because of you